Been sitting around mooching a bit of late. Don’t know if it’s the cold weather or just a mood. July has been really slow going work-wise and I have been working pretty full on with my training. At least with the training I have had to make samples for my class delivery, so got to play a lot more than I would normally and didn’t feel guilty! What is that guilt thing? I’m not sure where it comes from (even though I am a lapsed Catholic and they do say Catholics do guilt better than anyone!) I think it’s a woman thing, like perhaps it’s wrong to be here playing when there is work to be done (I have a poster with the perfect 50s housewife cleaning her bath with the caption ‘a clean house is the sign of a wasted life’. I think I must be subliminally taking that in!
As I look around me, a couple of hours before my friend arrives for the night, I have gone into a panic at the state of the house, and yet here I am writing my blog. I know that by the time I finish writing I will be so far behind that I will be hit with a wave of remorse, aka guilt, for spending so much time doing what I want to do and not doing what I should be doing. I hate that word…
Well I’m back and only 5 days have passed! Five! I can’t believe it and I still haven’t done half of the things I meant to. Oh well, bit of bad luck really. Last Thursday I started my knitting and crochet group and I blissfully realised on that morning, that I could sit back and knit for the whole afternoon and not even worry about what I should be doing – I am working!! Don’t you love it when you find a way to feel totally at peace with spending hours doing what you want? I think I actually love my job. I’m off to hunt through my bags of wool and patterns. Hope your world is being kind to you!
Source image: Happy Woman Isolated by Petr Kratochvil
